a week flies by

wow its pretty fast and a week has flew past since i did my last post. well theres exercise valiant mark going on right now so i guess i cant really blog in camp anymore haha.t i guess after those angmohs are gone then i can start blogging in camp and there will be more updates already. well there's quite a number of significant events that happened inthe week that i dint blog at al.hmm well i remember that time on thursday night when we were going to have nights out! hahha we were so excited and there were 8 of us who went to simpang bedok for supper together. i kinda enjoy their company right now. and ns life would be so boring without those guys around! and im hoping that they wouldnt post out or something. but eventually they would have to be posted out cos there are really too many people in S1 branch already haha.hmm then after that i had played pool with sylvester again..sian super cui when i play with him again la i always lose to him but i can beat others.hmm there must be something really wrong.i must become better and better!( and als control my finances at the same time haha.i think im really spending too much money this month already la.i must start eating at the cookhouse more often and only drink soya bean! oh ya i dislike those angmohs being here cos we dont have our twice a week runs anymore! ineed to run and burn fat la otherwise i'd become really fat. okay well today is saturday right. i think 2of the most significant events happenedthis week..! well firstly i went with ker han to the project rigel thingy. and i managed to see the katong special school kids again! i met wei bing hong yi and nigel from katong special school! ha although i dont really enjoy scouts, i just went there cos my heart really reaches out to these less fortunate kids and i really love them!we played games with them and also drew our patrol flag and sang our patol songs..haha i actualy do remember some scouting songs la im how pro can :P. we played captain's ball after that with like ping pong ball and volleyball. the really disgusting part was whenwe used tomatoes and RAW CHICKEN! the kids ripped the head off la how eewww. it was really slimy holding the chicken haha.hmm then after that i went to play pool with laekew and he won a race to 7 while i won a race to 5..he was so insistent on playing punch although i was really reluctant cos i dont wanan play punch with a friend la. hmm well second most significant event was my official first yam meeting! i really enjoyed it...there's really a deep study of the word and i really have to pray hard to be spiritually mature to make a point to understand what the study is all about cos the rest are mostly older than me. it was kinda awkward when i was praying with gillian haha im just kinda freaked out sometimes but i guess God was with me and i survived the prayer and i really enjoy yam sessions and classes..oooh baby caleb is MEGA CUTE! :D hmm its really peaceful and small..exactly what i want a church session to be like haha. and well after that i went for dinner with my relatives...gosh they ordered so much la..with my parents they would never ever order that much food man haha..its really alot! like 7 courses kinda thing..then we went bowling haha im kinda addicted to it actually. hmm and i got 3 strikes in a row again! haha i just need tolearn to become more consistent.but its a really expensive sport. now i think that even pool is cheaper la haha.hmm well I thank God for keeping me safe this whole week and also making me happy almost every single day. atleast i dont feel so depressed anymore and im happy im not thinking htat much about too many things already. and i've also started talking to veronica! haha she's pretty nice la but i can just like ko waiting for her replies haha. okayokay i guess i've said pretty much enough. im just happy that this week was quite a good one for me. tomorow got lunch in church...church anniversary! better get some rest lol i need SLEEEP RAHH!!

babel and strongsmen!

hey guess this is my likeduno what post already la i guess i dont really care also.hm i guess today what most impacted me is that mummy scolded me for degrading her infront of her friends and making her seem very evil.oh well guess its pretty much my fault la i wasnt thinking andi should realy watch what i say also.guess i need to improve that part of my character.gotta keep more to myself lest i hurt others with what i say too. hmm played tennis again with JJ today haha he's rather okay la i guess..whenever he hits the ball over the net it goes really fast and its hard to get.which is actually pretty rare.but well after all he's a nice guy la..hm after that he drove me to my new yam group which was actually meeting at starbucks!haha how cool is that huh.i met some of the members there like nat mei ben jo guoliang and gillian..i think its a rather peaceful group and i would really love to join them haha.its called babel and strongsmen! i havent asked ben(the group leader) why they're called that either.hmm maybe the next time i meet him i shall ask him...lol and he and jo was disappointed cos they thought that jj was actually bringing his girlfriend but it was actually me instead haha!oops sorry ben and jo maybe next time okay! well then after that i headed down to uncle cheelin's place for makan cos both his grand children turned 1month old.okay round about the same time at least so there was really a big party and its expensive also la i heard like its 25bucks per head or something like that.hmm but its a really unique buffet style kinda thing.there were stalls being set up and you could like go to the different stalls and order and you'll get it cooked on the spot so that it wouldnt be cold! oh and there was white wine too haha it was pretty good actually.and i saw da jie! its like dunno after how long then im seeing her again la haha shes still rather pretty although shes stressed up as shes taking her a's now.hmm so yeah today was a pretty enjoyable day after all..well i guess i still nedto learn to control my speech and to think hard before i let anything come out from my mouth.no cursing no swearing and i should be learn to be more encouraging than discouragingg..

army chronicles #2

hey God well im back here again to blog right now.in all seriousness and also casually too haha i dont know how that works but yeah i guess it will somehow.cos you're my main audience anyway. hmm well im at home now cos i took half day off and the other day i get it free cos of the hari raya holiday.thank goodness they counted only half day off and dint take my other half day away.hmm so well i guess things have been pretty okay just that brian jacked me in the strong room today and so far i think thats one of the most painful jacks i've received man haha..well then the day was pretty relaxed cos S1 wasnt in..we went for two canteen breaks la haha.but when S1 came back at night..then there was lots of work to be done already cos exercise valiant mark starts on monday already.US marines are coming down la haha so cool la.and me and kelvin had to do up their bunks by putting some stuff in the bunks like you know important information. then after that i decided to help nick with assignment thats why i only booked out at like 2350! thank goodness i rushed in packing my bag cos we're not supposed to book out after 2359. well tomorrow im gonna go queensway with mummy and john i decided i should spend more time with my family and not complain too much about it already.God has provided me with such wonderful family members that have stood by my side through so many things anyway. i guess thats it for today i dont have many things to share cos there're not many happenings...oh ya its so cooll you know the military security department did a check on us today! its like some surprise check la thank goodness our branch managed to clear everything well. oh and i still need to be more tolerant of stallone.argh i still cant stand him la.hmm i hope there were no findings although i saw DYS3 getting scolded by S2. rahh i dont like S2 now..bully one of my favourite officers la whats this.hmm okay i guess thats it already la.im gonna sleep soon already.tired tired byebye!

HQ coy cohesion!

oh well God, umm things today was actually pretty fun with my friends from my company.the different branches actually got together today and had a morning full of activities. hmm we had the activity at haw par villa and its been a long long while since i've been some sort of excursion trip lol..we kinda seemed like lil kids having to fall in and all that haha.well i've never been to haw par villa before so yeah this was just one opportunity then..we had like amazing race kinda thing around the whole haw par villa and its really sultry and hot la.oh and the whole haw par villa was like full of chinese statues and everything.i dint know my culture was that scary and okay maybe alil rich at the same time. royston and zhong qi called me an english sausage la!we guys were perspiring like mad and i remember zhong qi complaining like mad.oh and they sabo-ed me to go become the group ic haha but in the end i dint really do anything. after that we headed down to vivocity and had our lunch there.haha i loved talking with 2LT calvin la he's such an interesting character and as usual those guys were teasing me about my age again..calling me boy and kid again.its okay i know that deep down inside im a man already haha..and they actually think that im a lunatic to go army so early haha. cos im the special one whose ic number starts with a 90! oh well its okay la then after that we headed down to paradiz centre where we lanned and i pooled cos i dint wanna sit alone in the lan centre.then after a few guys left the place i just took over and i realised there are actually people worse than me in dota lol! hmm then again i guess i still gotta learn to control my language..but i guess its improving other than the occasional slips of the tongue.not bad i still dont use the f word anyway.haha gotta get back to camp soon even if im at home now..well sadly this is the life i lead.but im actually quite happy now and thankful for all the friends that i have right now in the army. thank goodness i didnt choose to leave 3 guards and chose to stay..i have absolutely no regrets at all..well thank you Lord for granting me wonderful people that i can always work with and help me to be more tolerant of stallone and shaun! thats one big barrier that i need to work on..working with people may seem like an easy thing but it aint after all.gotta need a whole lotta patience.well i shall sign off here for now..till then.

army chronicles

lets see i guess i pretty much do the same thing everyday so i guess there's not much point saying the same thing over and over again in my blog otherwise my blog posts would really be meaningless.haha oh well no eone ever reads my blog anyway cos they dont even know i have a blog except for minli i guess. i dont really wanna let too many people whats going on inside my life. anyway im probably gonna go for crescendo already so i wont be able to attend the combined youth camp at the end of the year how sad is that.oh well i guess i got more time to focus on god while im away on this trip cos i must really learn to lean on his promises while im away overseas and not together with all my friends. hmm well there's gonna be another exercise coming up so its kinda crappy la whole day doing this kinda thing. oh well not like we have a choice anymore right. i chose to go in early and i dont wanna have any regrets. after all my parents keep telling me its only for two years and after that i'll be gone from singapore and i wont be coming back to serve my reservice already haha how cool is that huh :D . anyway i guess i still need time to forgive people and also learn to bear with people..but sometimes kumar and stallone really gets on my nerves.hmm maybe if i avoid them then i wont get too worked up. okay i shall keep my distance and also think before saying anything else. then i will refrain from saying anything wrong. well i gotta learn to work with them cos im gonna be here together with them at the end..oh yeah i spent dunno how long looking for ng minli's present la she dint tell me her shoe size..i wanted to buy her a polo shirt of some sort yet i dint know what size she wore..gosh there were so many things i couldnt buy la. and i hope she doesnt read this before she gets the present haha. i bought her all pinky stuff..made me feel oh so gay buying it la.pink shoebag pink pencil case and pink waterbottle from fila! haha hope she really likes it. and i spent quite a bit on her present..the postage almost killed me! well i guess its worth it for our years of friendship and considering how nice she has been to me also :D okay and im thankful our army cohesion is at haw par villa which is extremely near my house la im a happy person now cos finally something is held near my house in the west then i dont hav to wake up so early to go..whoppeeee!

communion sunday!

okay wow this is my second post in a row.well today was pretty okay i guess..played tennis with daddy and squash with john. anyway im thankful that i managed to wake up for church today even though i slept really late last night..i was pretty shagged after playing squash with john la..he's actually pretty good for his age la..hmm after church i went with dad and mum to go eat at west coast market..oh ya im gonna blog about what i leearnt in church today from uncle boon tiong..he was talking about relationships with other people..and he said that there are 4 different kinds of people..namely the reducers(people who make fun of you), the reflectors(neutral people), the refiners(people who mould you) and lastly the refreshers(people who motivate you). i would definitely wanna be recognised by my friends as a refresher..well i guess today's service was pretty interesting..hmm and today i talked to charlene and i realised what she's doing now in her accounting degree course is exactly what im learning now in my basic book keeping class! how cool haha.anyway now the arsenal-sunderland match is on.its been a crazy first half hour haha..dunno whether im gonna stay up to watch the chelsea match though..pretty tired and tomorrow i gotta get back to camp..and i dont know what to get minli and her birthday's coming already!i need to do something about it then it can reach melbourne in time i hope.so well God i guess spending time with my friends that i already have and learnin not to be so sensitive would actually really help me if i wanna lead the life that would reflect your glory.so Lord i hope that you'll be able to help me continue living this kinda lifestyle..anyway i was pretty good at pool today! HAHA :D

spirit touch your church.stir the hearts of men.

life with him.

well here goes nothing. dear God, technology has really advanced and so have I so i got myself a blog haha..i decided that i shall communicate each and every day with you through this method.besides i get to 'pen' down my thoughts more easily. i guess things havent been too great in my life and i have been pretty disobedient when it comes to doing the right thing and following my parents' instructions. life isnt that great right now but i hope as i go along i get to monitor how im changing and improving my way of life too. now its late already and i dont even feel like going to church tomorrow.gosh talk about a new change of life in me.not really working that well.i feel like i cant even live up to the expectations of a christian lifestyle..i know i did it once but im not sure whether i can do it again.its always easy to say with God's help anything's possible..well i just gotta trust in those words and see if change is really gonna happen to me. well i wanna pray that i will get over marese and honestly treat her like a friend and stop having feelings for her. i keep letting myself fall for her and really just distracting me from the way i live my life. i know that if i dont ever get over her, my life in Christ will never be full and things will never change. well now that im in the army and lots of things have changed for me..i have to learn how to adapt to change..i was depressed and feeling suicidal yes but i guess not anymore cos i realised that i have friends that i can always turn to and always count on too..they can be my pillars of strength and they are the ones who will be helping me survive through the whole national service term..i will survive and with the help of the Lord im sure im gonna survive it well. and the past few days i've been thinking about my childhood best friend calvin..i really am sad that he is the way he is now and i know that he shouldnt be like that..i mean he's really way better than what he is now..i feel so guilty for the years lost and i should learn to spend more time with him even though he's in canada..maybe through email we could update each other about our lives. anyway talking about email...recently i've been emailing min li and she's been replying everyday and im really thankful for that..im going to be in the same class as her next time and probably she's gonna be the one to help me fit in when i move over to australia..im really glad that i still have a friend like her. oh well. i know my life's different from my friends and i gotta accept that cos this is the route that i chose to take and now i cant look back and blame anyone else so yeah im sorry mum and dad that i actually blamed you two for sending me into army early. i guess you're right in a way that friends arent really forever. we all lead different lives and sometimes its really so difficult to keep up with each other's lives anymore although i really wish i could spend more time with my old buddies from 4F and also friends that i've not met in a really long time. i still remember this verse in the bible that tells me that "so do not fear, for i am with you. do not be dismayed, for i will not forsake you. i will uphold you with my righteous right hand" i think this verse is from isaiah. i guess i have to bury this verse deep inside my heart and never let it out. in this way i know that my God is always there for me and he is never ever gonna leave. its easy to say that i do not need anyone or anything else for i have God and he is more than enough for me. but its really hard to be alone and just have him alone..i still need my friends and my family for me to get through this life. from today onwards i will start trying to make changes and i gotta spend more time listening to that still small voice in my head telling me what im supposed to do..where im wrong and where im right.God save me.